A confession

" You can do better, you are potential 2 A student, just what happen to you? " I remember Mr Yeo said this line very clearly last month, 29th of May. To be honest, I have not taken school seriously, not even once. I admit that I don't like to spent hours with school related stuff, especially those that involve memory work. I know that I never put my 100%, but I dunno why I does that. I remember that my teachers, especially my form teacher Ms Heng was disappointed with my O Level result. I only get 2A1 and 1A2 when they know that I can get 4A1 if I study enough. Where did the strong motivation I had during sec 3 time had gone? I was the top science student in my class. My Physics and Chemistry topped the entire school with a huge gap next to the second in place. Where the motivation to polish my blade has gone? It was sharp enough to challenge Mr Salim, the most detestful Math teacher I ever had. It was also shiny enough to gain recognition from Mr Joseph, one of the best Maths teacher I ever had. I even topped the entire school for AMC10. Where it has gone why I leave it to dull? Not only Mr Yeo had questioned me but other teachers has done that before him. Including Mr Yong and Mrs Sze. They know I can do it, but why I don't pick my blade and start polishing it and sharpening it? I remember one of Chinese fencer said that to obtain a great victory one must fight the hardest battle which is a fight against oneself. So, is it really the time to force myself to study?