I met with Izumi and the gang on Saturday and spend long hours having meal, crapping around and watching movie. The movie title was "Kick-Ass" adapted from Marvel Comics by the same title. I got to say it was hilarious albeit full of adult jokes. It was a good stress relief.
I bought a Yamaha PSR-E323 that same day. It is a touch sensitive electronic keyboard. Yeah, you knew it if you read my previous entry. I wanted to play it out of the blue and still want to play it now. Yes, it is an efficient distraction and a very entertaining one.
I remember that a few days ago, Lionel warned me that I have been acting weird recently and it freaks my classmates off. Yeah, I noticed it too. CH asked my what actually happened and I just told him that I need to be alone for a while. I dunno why but this few days things had gotten crazy for me, the unpleasant feeling that comes from nowhere had been bugging me all this while. Perhaps, I just simply bored.
I encounter some problem with the student pass application. It is the sponsor part. My previous sponsor know little or no English when it had to be done online and everything is in English. Maybe I should get another sponsor or meet him to get it done. I wonder why they use the word sponsor when no money is involved.
Mom was surprised when I called her today, since I rarely called home. It is usually she is the one to call. Actually I was going to call my dad to tell him my difficulty with the student pass, but it seemed that dad is in China now and mom is using his number. Oh well, I'm going to call again tomorrow and ask mom about it.
Monday, April 26, 2010
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Chasing Dreams
This few days life had been boring. I totally felt like a zombie, deprived of what I really want to do, I feel like a machine that is made to satisfy someone's desire. A few months ago dad told me to choose university course that ensure a job for me. I was reluctant to choose any and just told him any kind of engineering would do. In reality, I wanted to study science, something that somehow hard to grab a job. I have read that some scientist (especially astronomer) could not find a job and end up as a writer. That prospects kinda scares me.
When A level result released, I was in despair. My result could not bring me to any local university. In desperation, I did a mumbo-jumbo research on overseas universities, especially German university since I was interested to went there for further studies. I was aghast when dad told me that he won't let me go there, even when he already told me two years ago that it was okay to go there since my cousin is there to help me. I was lucky enough to have Mr Lee helped me with questions regarding re-application and retaking A Level. I was glad that Mr Yeo also could spare me some of his time to have an appointment with me. Yes, I end up reapplying for A Level. I have no choice in the first place anyway.
Dad called me today and told me that I can take any course that I want, as long as I like it, even if it will be difficult to find a job. I have thought about it for quite long and come to a solid decision what I'll do if NTU won't take me this year. I want to choose Astronomy, but it is out of choice in this small island. Since modern Astronomy is closely linked with Astrophysics, I'll go for Physics with specialisation in Astrophysics offered by NUS instead. Major in Physics and minor in Maths will be a second choice. I know that it is extremely tough to secure a place in these courses. I need 4As in order to ensure a place. In other words, it time to go on rampage -spamming prelims paper with above 80% as my target. I have to place a limit though. I don't want to burn out or maybe having slump on the day of the exam like what happened last year. I have to minimise doing funny stuffs that I had been doing all this while, such as choosing questions that are interesting rather than easy. The consequences is bad, it can cost another year. It is terrible, seriously terrible.
I told my sister today that I wanted to buy keyboard, not typing keyboard, but a musical one. Yes, I want to learn how to play piano out of the blue but since I fear that this burning interest is short-lived, I decide that it is better to get a keyboard than a piano. To be honest I love music since my childhood, but I despise local bands as I don't find anything special in the voices of the singers. I discover about classical music when I reach teenage-hood and start getting engrossed with it. Mozart's Piano Sonata No. 11 in A major, K 331 (300i) Rondo Alla Turca was among my favourite.
New MacBook Pro had been released. It comes with i5 or i7 as predicted. The price is rather costly too. I have a liking with the i7 model. It cost about the same with a Fujitsu i7 that was offered by Asiapac before discount. Perhaps I can get the new MacBook Pro cheaper during the next IT fair. I had been waiting for it's release all this while.
When A level result released, I was in despair. My result could not bring me to any local university. In desperation, I did a mumbo-jumbo research on overseas universities, especially German university since I was interested to went there for further studies. I was aghast when dad told me that he won't let me go there, even when he already told me two years ago that it was okay to go there since my cousin is there to help me. I was lucky enough to have Mr Lee helped me with questions regarding re-application and retaking A Level. I was glad that Mr Yeo also could spare me some of his time to have an appointment with me. Yes, I end up reapplying for A Level. I have no choice in the first place anyway.
Dad called me today and told me that I can take any course that I want, as long as I like it, even if it will be difficult to find a job. I have thought about it for quite long and come to a solid decision what I'll do if NTU won't take me this year. I want to choose Astronomy, but it is out of choice in this small island. Since modern Astronomy is closely linked with Astrophysics, I'll go for Physics with specialisation in Astrophysics offered by NUS instead. Major in Physics and minor in Maths will be a second choice. I know that it is extremely tough to secure a place in these courses. I need 4As in order to ensure a place. In other words, it time to go on rampage -spamming prelims paper with above 80% as my target. I have to place a limit though. I don't want to burn out or maybe having slump on the day of the exam like what happened last year. I have to minimise doing funny stuffs that I had been doing all this while, such as choosing questions that are interesting rather than easy. The consequences is bad, it can cost another year. It is terrible, seriously terrible.
I told my sister today that I wanted to buy keyboard, not typing keyboard, but a musical one. Yes, I want to learn how to play piano out of the blue but since I fear that this burning interest is short-lived, I decide that it is better to get a keyboard than a piano. To be honest I love music since my childhood, but I despise local bands as I don't find anything special in the voices of the singers. I discover about classical music when I reach teenage-hood and start getting engrossed with it. Mozart's Piano Sonata No. 11 in A major, K 331 (300i) Rondo Alla Turca was among my favourite.
New MacBook Pro had been released. It comes with i5 or i7 as predicted. The price is rather costly too. I have a liking with the i7 model. It cost about the same with a Fujitsu i7 that was offered by Asiapac before discount. Perhaps I can get the new MacBook Pro cheaper during the next IT fair. I had been waiting for it's release all this while.
Monday, April 12, 2010
Natural Science?
I have thought about it. Maybe what interest me now is what called "Natural Science".
Thursday, April 8, 2010
That was a mouthful
Okay, I have posted quite a lot today.
Let's talk about what happening recently.
Yesterday I just finished the book "God Delusion" which I started reading last year, but I re-read it from the beginning early this year. To be honest, it is quite a heavy book. It took me so long to finish, about a month to be precise.
Life had been crappy as usual, as boring as ever. Yesterday, I planned to fish some info from DAAD. Little did I know that I have to made appointment for that. Maybe next time or perhaps an e-mail is enough.
Today is no fun either, it was boring like hell. PE is super sucks. Boring and tiring training...
Oh yah, I'm reading "A Devil's Chaplain" now. Another book by Richard Dawkins, but this one is more like essay collection. Remind me that I have some Carl Sagan to read.
Let's talk about what happening recently.
Yesterday I just finished the book "God Delusion" which I started reading last year, but I re-read it from the beginning early this year. To be honest, it is quite a heavy book. It took me so long to finish, about a month to be precise.
Life had been crappy as usual, as boring as ever. Yesterday, I planned to fish some info from DAAD. Little did I know that I have to made appointment for that. Maybe next time or perhaps an e-mail is enough.
Today is no fun either, it was boring like hell. PE is super sucks. Boring and tiring training...
Oh yah, I'm reading "A Devil's Chaplain" now. Another book by Richard Dawkins, but this one is more like essay collection. Remind me that I have some Carl Sagan to read.
Animal Rights?!? Are you kidding me?
Well, I won't shoot a bullet here, but if you are easily offended when it comes to pets (including lab rats or guinea pigs), PLEASE GET LOST. I am going to talk about it in naturalistic view.
We noticed that there is an increasing movement on what is called animal rights. In this age when human rights is almost granted to everyone, there is an land slide leading to what called animal rights. Starting from the animals that are closer to us, such as cat and dogs and further movement plead for humane treatment spread to various kind of wild animals which could also potentially kill us. Many of these animal rights activist propagandize by exploiting the weakness of human heart with displays of slaughtering methods, animal experimentation and hunting method.
To be honest, such display is utterly disgusting, enough to make a person spill what he had eaten in the morning. Those pictures might be true however, is it a necessary to work against it? Just look at how animal kills, doesn't it look as bloody as what have been done by human? If this is not enough, there are also other ways animals do kill that is extremely gross, bad enough to make you feel sick. Have you ever heard of Ichneumonidae or maybe Ammophila (digger wasp)? It's larvae is parasitic, feeding off the host when the host is alive. The host, which is usually a caterpillar, is eaten alive from the insides, slowly till the larva grows up and going to become pupa soon. Just imagine eggs injected into your body, what comes from the egg going to eat you from inside when you are still alive and it is going to rip your body off on its way out to metamorph. It is an extremely cruel process! So, why we bother to be so kind towards other species if the nature is not that kind?
Some people might argue that human is the only species that kill for fun, not killing only for food or territorial battle. However, the nature seems to speak otherwise. Bottle-nosed Dolphin had been found to murder harmless porpoises. It had been examined that the attack on the porpoises is accurately aimed. They are way impossible to be accidents. One more thing to note is that dolphins are not territorial. They are a migratory animal, having no permanent place to stay. Another animal to point out is Orca. The killer whale had been recorded to play with seals in a game that looks like a bully. The seals were not eaten, just being smacked to the sky multiple times!
Another issue to note is that where this will stop? Some people argue that the primates should have it, lab rats should have it, cats and dogs should have it, and so on. Where this will stop? Why limit it just to a group of certain animals? It was argued that Chimps should have human rights as it share 98% of the components of our DNA. But, what about worms? Some of them share 75% of our DNA. Does that make them 75% human? Hell no!
The other problem is that, can animal appreciate and respect the rights given to them? Where is the rights of my hamster to protect it from being eaten by my neighbour's cat? It is absurd! Are you going to sue your neighbour's dog for bullying your cat? Hell no, we will just make the owner pay for the damages.
The most important thing to note is that, "is there such thing called rights?" My answer will be a straight no. In the times of war, there is no regard of human life, a clear violation of right to live. Another thing to note is your freedom of choice. In times of war you have no choice, but to do what you are being instructed. A clear violation of right to choose. There is simply no such thing as rights. We just happen to be claiming it all this while. Don't believe me? Go and check history book.
We noticed that there is an increasing movement on what is called animal rights. In this age when human rights is almost granted to everyone, there is an land slide leading to what called animal rights. Starting from the animals that are closer to us, such as cat and dogs and further movement plead for humane treatment spread to various kind of wild animals which could also potentially kill us. Many of these animal rights activist propagandize by exploiting the weakness of human heart with displays of slaughtering methods, animal experimentation and hunting method.
To be honest, such display is utterly disgusting, enough to make a person spill what he had eaten in the morning. Those pictures might be true however, is it a necessary to work against it? Just look at how animal kills, doesn't it look as bloody as what have been done by human? If this is not enough, there are also other ways animals do kill that is extremely gross, bad enough to make you feel sick. Have you ever heard of Ichneumonidae or maybe Ammophila (digger wasp)? It's larvae is parasitic, feeding off the host when the host is alive. The host, which is usually a caterpillar, is eaten alive from the insides, slowly till the larva grows up and going to become pupa soon. Just imagine eggs injected into your body, what comes from the egg going to eat you from inside when you are still alive and it is going to rip your body off on its way out to metamorph. It is an extremely cruel process! So, why we bother to be so kind towards other species if the nature is not that kind?
Some people might argue that human is the only species that kill for fun, not killing only for food or territorial battle. However, the nature seems to speak otherwise. Bottle-nosed Dolphin had been found to murder harmless porpoises. It had been examined that the attack on the porpoises is accurately aimed. They are way impossible to be accidents. One more thing to note is that dolphins are not territorial. They are a migratory animal, having no permanent place to stay. Another animal to point out is Orca. The killer whale had been recorded to play with seals in a game that looks like a bully. The seals were not eaten, just being smacked to the sky multiple times!
Another issue to note is that where this will stop? Some people argue that the primates should have it, lab rats should have it, cats and dogs should have it, and so on. Where this will stop? Why limit it just to a group of certain animals? It was argued that Chimps should have human rights as it share 98% of the components of our DNA. But, what about worms? Some of them share 75% of our DNA. Does that make them 75% human? Hell no!
The other problem is that, can animal appreciate and respect the rights given to them? Where is the rights of my hamster to protect it from being eaten by my neighbour's cat? It is absurd! Are you going to sue your neighbour's dog for bullying your cat? Hell no, we will just make the owner pay for the damages.
The most important thing to note is that, "is there such thing called rights?" My answer will be a straight no. In the times of war, there is no regard of human life, a clear violation of right to live. Another thing to note is your freedom of choice. In times of war you have no choice, but to do what you are being instructed. A clear violation of right to choose. There is simply no such thing as rights. We just happen to be claiming it all this while. Don't believe me? Go and check history book.
Monday, April 5, 2010
What to do?
My cousin had asked me to list what I probably would like to do for Uni. This is kinda tough, since I have quite board range of interest without knowing what is really interest me.
Astronomy
Theoretical Physics
Pure Mathematics
Quantum Physics
Evolutionary Biology
Nanotechnology
Applied Physics
Ethology
Genetics
Aerospace Engineering
Robotic Engineering
Engineering Science
Cosmology
Astro-physics
Material Engineering
Zoology
Archeology
Paleontology
Statistics
Nuclear Physics
This kinda remind me when Ee Hong and Wen Jie asked me what I want to do in Uni, assuming I can enter any course. I did not give them a reply back then. I'm still confused, I just do not know what is really in my interest. If I scanned the books that I had been reading the answer is simply science, but on what field? Biology? Physics? Mathematics? I only remember that since my childhood time, I'm fascinated with the cosmos. Yes, it was true that I had been reading encyclopedia on Astronomy since my childhood -which surprised the librarian. At that time, I also share a strong interest in studying animals (Sadly, I can't be a vet. I have cynophobia.). I had been reading a lot of book on them (Learning about dinosaur had been the initial trigger that made me doubt the creation, but I was too young to question it.). Alas, growing up made me neglecting that good habit. Maths is not something that I can live without. My life had been filled with it, ever since my childhood time. To be honest, I had been exposed to a lot of mathematical concept much earlier than what most people are, ranging from basic algebra and graphing to the vicious complex number.
I'm totally lost if you ask me what I really want to do.
Astronomy
Theoretical Physics
Pure Mathematics
Quantum Physics
Evolutionary Biology
Nanotechnology
Applied Physics
Ethology
Genetics
Aerospace Engineering
Robotic Engineering
Engineering Science
Cosmology
Astro-physics
Material Engineering
Zoology
Archeology
Paleontology
Statistics
Nuclear Physics
This kinda remind me when Ee Hong and Wen Jie asked me what I want to do in Uni, assuming I can enter any course. I did not give them a reply back then. I'm still confused, I just do not know what is really in my interest. If I scanned the books that I had been reading the answer is simply science, but on what field? Biology? Physics? Mathematics? I only remember that since my childhood time, I'm fascinated with the cosmos. Yes, it was true that I had been reading encyclopedia on Astronomy since my childhood -which surprised the librarian. At that time, I also share a strong interest in studying animals (Sadly, I can't be a vet. I have cynophobia.). I had been reading a lot of book on them (Learning about dinosaur had been the initial trigger that made me doubt the creation, but I was too young to question it.). Alas, growing up made me neglecting that good habit. Maths is not something that I can live without. My life had been filled with it, ever since my childhood time. To be honest, I had been exposed to a lot of mathematical concept much earlier than what most people are, ranging from basic algebra and graphing to the vicious complex number.
I'm totally lost if you ask me what I really want to do.
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