Chasing Dreams

This few days life had been boring. I totally felt like a zombie, deprived of what I really want to do, I feel like a machine that is made to satisfy someone's desire. A few months ago dad told me to choose university course that ensure a job for me. I was reluctant to choose any and just told him any kind of engineering would do. In reality, I wanted to study science, something that somehow hard to grab a job. I have read that some scientist (especially astronomer) could not find a job and end up as a writer. That prospects kinda scares me.

When A level result released, I was in despair. My result could not bring me to any local university. In desperation, I did a mumbo-jumbo research on overseas universities, especially German university since I was interested to went there for further studies. I was aghast when dad told me that he won't let me go there, even when he already told me two years ago that it was okay to go there since my cousin is there to help me. I was lucky enough to have Mr Lee helped me with questions regarding re-application and retaking A Level. I was glad that Mr Yeo also could spare me some of his time to have an appointment with me. Yes, I end up reapplying for A Level. I have no choice in the first place anyway.

Dad called me today and told me that I can take any course that I want, as long as I like it, even if it will be difficult to find a job. I have thought about it for quite long and come to a solid decision what I'll do if NTU won't take me this year. I want to choose Astronomy, but it is out of choice in this small island. Since modern Astronomy is closely linked with Astrophysics, I'll go for Physics with specialisation in Astrophysics offered by NUS instead. Major in Physics and minor in Maths will be a second choice. I know that it is extremely tough to secure a place in these courses. I need 4As in order to ensure a place. In other words, it time to go on rampage -spamming prelims paper with above 80% as my target. I have to place a limit though. I don't want to burn out or maybe having slump on the day of the exam like what happened last year. I have to minimise doing funny stuffs that I had been doing all this while, such as choosing questions that are interesting rather than easy. The consequences is bad, it can cost another year. It is terrible, seriously terrible.

I told my sister today that I wanted to buy keyboard, not typing keyboard, but a musical one. Yes, I want to learn how to play piano out of the blue but since I fear that this burning interest is short-lived, I decide that it is better to get a keyboard than a piano. To be honest I love music since my childhood, but I despise local bands as I don't find anything special in the voices of the singers. I discover about classical music when I reach teenage-hood and start getting engrossed with it. Mozart's Piano Sonata No. 11 in A major, K 331 (300i) Rondo Alla Turca was among my favourite.

New MacBook Pro had been released. It comes with i5 or i7 as predicted. The price is rather costly too. I have a liking with the i7 model. It cost about the same with a Fujitsu i7 that was offered by Asiapac before discount. Perhaps I can get the new MacBook Pro cheaper during the next IT fair. I had been waiting for it's release all this while.